• Allgemein,  Life

    Light Your Fire 2020

    Have I been dropped from the beak of some great bird travelling Between the Worlds to fall on the earth once more? Here I am in Konak, Izmir, almost 100 years after my grandfather Ali Riza Akinci made history here in 1921. Do we have the courage now to live with our hearts wide open? What is essential to me after the Journey to Myself in 2019 which broke me into pieces. In that dark tunnel of confusion and pain I met demons and healers, all bearing the seed of love, the source of everything and nothing. Nine months of rehabilitation have strengthened my new heart and allowed me needed…

  • Life

    My heart journey

    took a wild, unexpected turn as my surgery scheduled for 27.02 in Tirol Universitätskliniken Innsbruck was suddenly stopped just moments before starting. Breaking news: my main surgeon had to take over a critical emergency. I felt lucky to be healthy and grabbed the chance of enjoying a warm sunny day in this lovely city surrounded by lofty mountains (Galgenfrist!) I am back, now recovering in a clinic near Innsbruck. The mitralvalve reconstruction, a complex 6 hour operation performed by a team of 4 of the best surgeons in the world on 01.03 was successful. I bow in gratitude and respect so deep, you cannot imagine. I had the gift of…

  • Allgemein,  Life

    Wholeness and separation

    Waking up yesterday morning from a deep dream state: Feeling like I was coming back from faraway. Very ecstatic and happy, I ask myself, “Am I waking up from my heart surgery? Is it already over? Yes, I thought, it´s good, everything is good. I am reborn and my heart is fixed!“ All the heaviness I have been carrying was gone like a dark cloud passing. Disappointment, alas, I still have some challenges ahead before my operation 27 February. I keep this treasure with me now, recalling joyful gratitude and lightness in my chest. What a present, what a source of strength! One more week before I make my way…