Waking up yesterday morning from a deep dream state: Feeling like I was coming back from faraway. Very ecstatic and happy, I ask myself, “Am I waking up from my heart surgery? Is it already over? Yes, I thought, it´s good, everything is good. I am reborn and my heart is fixed!“ All the heaviness I have been carrying was gone like a dark cloud passing. Disappointment, alas, I still have some challenges ahead before my operation 27 February.
I keep this treasure with me now, recalling joyful gratitude and lightness in my chest. What a present, what a source of strength! One more week before I make my way to Innsbruck.
This weekend is time for me devoted to a special nomadic journey from Weinviertel to the mountains, then further to gather elemental energy in Waldviertel.
A huge rock avalanche blocked the road here, forcing me to drive long, unknown, winding roads through mystical ancient places I saw for the first time – a mirror for my soul …
Snow, sunshine, warm water, solitude,
loving energy felt from family and friends,
the presence of the Great Mother remind me:
I was always whole from the beginning before the beginning.
Let it melt like winter, this illusion
of separation and brokenness.