• Allgemein

    Spring is Fleeting Beauty

    Today is day # 27 post OP. I totally underestimated how much my heart surgery would change my life. An inherent lack of patience with my step-by-step regeneration and integration of my finely-tuned heart with all levels of my physical, emotional and spiritual self is often bewildering. Do I know myself at all? My heart is commanding me to slow down and I feel transparent like a butterfly that just slid out of its protective cocoon. Too weak to take on the journey last week back home from Innsbruck, I am lucky to stay in Munich with some of the best friends in the world. Their love and patience allow…

  • Allgemein,  Life

    Wholeness and separation

    Waking up yesterday morning from a deep dream state: Feeling like I was coming back from faraway. Very ecstatic and happy, I ask myself, “Am I waking up from my heart surgery? Is it already over? Yes, I thought, it´s good, everything is good. I am reborn and my heart is fixed!“ All the heaviness I have been carrying was gone like a dark cloud passing. Disappointment, alas, I still have some challenges ahead before my operation 27 February. I keep this treasure with me now, recalling joyful gratitude and lightness in my chest. What a present, what a source of strength! One more week before I make my way…

  • Allgemein,  Wine

    The Mystery and Soul of Wine

    Tonight is one of those windy, unfriendly January nights in Northwestern Weinviertel and I am enjoying my solitude. The men are out of the house after these busy days of vine pruning. I decide to ignore – just for tonight – all „shoulds“ to reflect and be inspired for new paintings. I am drinking my personal antidepressive remedy, Rosa Deum Vintage 2017, Cuvee Barrique – Gewürztraminer with Grüner Veltliner – Limited Edition of 840 bottles and extreme selection (always by hand by every Seymann wine) in the vineyard. I love this vintage with least alcohol – 12.5% – of all vintages up to now. A white wine with the „wow…