• Allgemein

    Spring is Fleeting Beauty

    Today is day # 27 post OP. I totally underestimated how much my heart surgery would change my life. An inherent lack of patience with my step-by-step regeneration and integration of my finely-tuned heart with all levels of my physical, emotional and spiritual self is often bewildering. Do I know myself at all? My heart is commanding me to slow down and I feel transparent like a butterfly that just slid out of its protective cocoon. Too weak to take on the journey last week back home from Innsbruck, I am lucky to stay in Munich with some of the best friends in the world. Their love and patience allow…

  • Life

    My heart journey

    took a wild, unexpected turn as my surgery scheduled for 27.02 in Tirol Universitätskliniken Innsbruck was suddenly stopped just moments before starting. Breaking news: my main surgeon had to take over a critical emergency. I felt lucky to be healthy and grabbed the chance of enjoying a warm sunny day in this lovely city surrounded by lofty mountains (Galgenfrist!) I am back, now recovering in a clinic near Innsbruck. The mitralvalve reconstruction, a complex 6 hour operation performed by a team of 4 of the best surgeons in the world on 01.03 was successful. I bow in gratitude and respect so deep, you cannot imagine. I had the gift of…

  • Allgemein,  Life

    Wholeness and separation

    Waking up yesterday morning from a deep dream state: Feeling like I was coming back from faraway. Very ecstatic and happy, I ask myself, “Am I waking up from my heart surgery? Is it already over? Yes, I thought, it´s good, everything is good. I am reborn and my heart is fixed!“ All the heaviness I have been carrying was gone like a dark cloud passing. Disappointment, alas, I still have some challenges ahead before my operation 27 February. I keep this treasure with me now, recalling joyful gratitude and lightness in my chest. What a present, what a source of strength! One more week before I make my way…